As with compliments, criticism can be a difficult concept to accept especially for a person with Asperger’s. In my case it has been an emotion I have had to grapple with recently as an experimental video I created has not created the effect I had hoped on the audience.
A few months ago I came up with the idea to take melodies from modern popular songs and play them in the style of various classical composers, beginning with “Bad Romance” by Lady Gaga in the style of J.S. Bach. Lately this concept has become very popular on YouTube, resulting in a large amount of traffic towards the video. However, the main content of my comments has proven to me that maybe my idea of Bach is not the conventional one. We Aspies take a large amount of pride in everything we do and are proud especially of efforts that require creativity and emotional investment.
For a person who devotes a large amount of time and effort towards studying and emulating the behaviors of neurotypical people it can feel very isolating to know that something I feel strongly in does not translate to what is typical for NTs.To become aware again of the fact that in terms of my thought process I am not on the same page as everybody else can make me feel like a young child again and as if I have misdirected my studies.
I do recognize that it would be impossible to completely avoid criticism, especially when putting myself out in the public eye. There will always be somebody who disagrees with what I am doing and it is necessary for me to accept that criticism does not always reflect my shortcomings but the opinions of the viewer or reader.